A little early maybe??

So, we went on a family trip this past week. My grandma passed away so we went to her funeral which was six hours away from where we live. While there I decided since I was a day late and just couldn't handle the temptation anymore that I would get a pregnancy test and see...well...negative. Should I be surprised by this? You'd think I would be used to disappointment by now, but I keep having some inane hope that this time it will be different. I still have a hope that there is a possibility that I am pregnant. My period still hasn't started, and looking back on past times, the p-test usually doesn't show up positive till I am a week or two late, so I can still hope right?

I made myself depressed by looking up maternity shirts on e-bay. I don't know why I do this. I was even tempted to bid on some shirts, and then I just thought, why? It's not like I need them! So, I am going to wait a week and test again. Maybe that time I will have some happy news to share.