An update.

I guess I have been avoiding writing this post. Probably because I wanted to be absolutely 100% certain that I would be writing the correct information. Then, because I didn't like that information, and maybe because I was in a little bit of denial, I put it off.

I am not pregnant.

There. I wrote it. Doesn't change anything really. I can't say that I'm gung-ho to try the Femara again. Not really because of how it made me feel or anything, but more I guess because part of me sits there and just thinks "What's the point?"

I'm tired. I'm tired of counting, wondering, waiting, testing, and having the result be the same. I'm tired of doctors. I'm tired of hoping and thinking that "maybe this month will be the month."

And so, I've decided...no more. If it happens it happens, but for now I am going to focus on the two beautiful children that I have and thank God that I have two.

Femara revisited...

So, it has been about 30 days since I started the Femara. Here is the interesting thing. Being on the Femara was actually great in a way. I felt HAPPY, but I knew it wasn't a real happy, but I didn't feel irritable or mean, which is what I was worried about. After finishing the Femara pills (which you only take for five days if you are using it for fertility) I felt ornery, mean, irritable, and basically like any other PMS woman. That was hard to deal with. It lasted about a week after I took the last Femara pill.

I didn't think much of the whole cycle, because things were psychotic in our household, and I couldn't determine when I was "fertile" or right before ovulation, and that is the weird thing about being on Femara. NO discharge. At all. Completely dry. Maybe too much information, but I feel that if someone reads this wondering if they should take Femara then they should know.

That being said. I am currently late. Am I pregnant? Well, the verdict is still out on that one. Still, one of the "side effects" of Femara is supposed to be a more lush lining in the uterus for the egg to implant in, so maybe, just maybe, it worked! We shall see. When I know, I'm sure I will let whoever reads this know as well! Go ahead, send some babydust my way! :)

Femara

So, I have decided to try Femara. Femara is a drug that is commonly used for patients who have breast cancer. No, I do not have breast cancer. Femara has recently within the past few years, been used as an infertility drug as well.

I decided against using Clomid for a few different reasons. The main ones being that it can cause the lining in the uterus to thin, among other things. It also stays in the body a long time.

Femara stays in the body a shorter time and doesn't cause the same problems that Clomid does. So, I figured why not. When I asked my doctor about it he told me that I could try it if I wanted, and that it was a "low risk drug" whatever that means.

I figured this would be a good way to document how I feel on it. I took my first pill today. So far, I just feel jittery. Almost like I drank a big thing of caffeinated pop. It's like feeling on the edge of hyperness, but controllable. I don't feel irritable. Actually quite the opposite. I feel HAPPY! I do feel sort of lightheaded and tired, but not really. So, we'll see how I feel as I continue.

Like Clomid you only take Femara for 5 days. So, only 4 more to go!